June took all of two seconds. Between getting affairs in order for university (Single room! No roommate! All my first choice classes! Shakespeare! On! Film!) and the void of everyone else working while I have nothing much to do (that is, other than watching Nothing Much To Do again), I feel like this month has barely even been an entire week.
The worst part of summer is by far only beginning—that’s right, picnics and fireworks and all things in the hot outdoors. Pride was certainly the beginning of that, and I don’t think I’ll ever truly get over the feeling of guilt over not going to the parade. I just really hate crowds and sweating a lot. Also I faint easily. I always have. It sucks. Whatever.
New releases wise, Bleacher’s second album kicked my ass, which I love, and Lorde’s second album failed to reach me, which I deeply despise. I’m making an effort to listen to more kickass female musicians, starting here with Mitski, Alvvays, and Daddy Issues, whose three songs on here I absolutely lose my mind to every time I even think about them. I’m also rediscovering artists in the vein of Candypants and The Dollyrots, which are equally kickass and just the kind of energetic music I really need right now.
Here’s to July being worse. Who knows what I’ll do in August in the DC humidity. Die, probably. Stay inside as often as possible, definitely. I do still have to read all those books.
(This month I also made a Last.fm account, which I think will probably show a very differently monthly listening habit than these more curated playlists, so check that out here.)
A lot of things are having their lasts, and a lot are having their firsts.
In two days I have my last Garage Music News meeting, where I’ve been writing for the past two years. Being there has made me a better writer, a better friend, a better listener and collaborator and worker and person. There I’ve made friends like I’ve never imagined, people who inspire me every minute and help me grow and change.
Yesterday I came out to my family. I start my new life with a new name I thought long and hard about that feels more like me than anything ever has. It’s both nerve-wracking and relieving to not have to worry about who I’m being when, and I don’t know what life like this will be but I hope it’s just as good.
Now if you’ll excuse me, I bought seven books the other day and have to read them all before I move.
April is the cruelest month, although not so much this year. Here I started really getting in a rut musically, because really, who needs anything more than Sufjan Stevens, Car Seat Headrest, Simon & Garfunkel, and The Mountain Goats?
Well, it turns out, I do, and the next month’s playlist is an attempt to rectify that. But for now, I accidentally put “Butchie’s Tune” in two different months.
What do I believe?
In the private life
In holding up culture
In music, Shakespeare, old buildings
What do I enjoy?
Being in love
Never on time
Lying, talking too much
No volition for refusal
— Reborn: Journals and Notebooks, 1947-1963, Susan Sontag
March was a very dance-y month. That was largely on purpose, both because it was the first month I did “live” so to speak on an account that people followed and watched this playlist being curated, and also because March is always hard for me. I don’t know why, but it’s the only “season” that affects my disorder(s). Not technically SAD, because it’s more a constant worsened than a suddenly appearing and disappearing depression, but hard nonetheless. Hence: music for dancing.
- “Dance Yrself Clean” by LCD Soundsystem
- “Romance Is Boring” by Los Campesinos!
- “The Good Life” by Weezer
- “When I Needed You” by Carly Rae Jepsen
- “Dreams” by The Cranberries
- “One More Hour” by Sleater-Kinney
- “Rugged Country” by Japanese Breakfast
- “Semi-Charmed Life” by Third Eye Blind
- “(It’s a) Departure” by The Long Winters
- “Touches You” by MIKA
- “Fifteen Minutes” by Mike Krol
- “Shame” by Bad Bad Hats
- “Closer” by Tegan and Sara
- “Oblivion” by Grimes
- “I Think I Need A New Heart” by The Magnetic Fields
- “Secrets” by Deep Sea Diver
- “Take A Chance On Me” by ABBA
- “Am I a Girl? Am I a Boy? Do I Really Care?” by In Love With A Ghost
- “I Want a Pony” by Candypants
- “Photobooth” by Death Cab for Cutie
- “Hurt” by Johnny Cash
- “Peer Gynt-Suite Nr. 1, Op. 46: III. Anitras dans (Anitra’s Dance)” by Edvard Grieg
- “Carnival of the Animals: Aquarium” by Camille Saint-Saëns
- “Casin” by glue70
- “Everyone Is Gay” by A Great Big World
- “When Did Your Heart Go Missing?” by Rooney
- “The Shining” by Badly Drawn Boy
- “Leave a Tender Moment Alone” by Billy Joel
- “Lose You” by Pete Yorn
- “A Whiter Shade Of Pale” by Procolo Harum
- “No Surprises” by Radiohead
Cover art is “Ghost V” by Nichael Johansson.